Losing Interest

I think I am beginning to lose interest in Mr. WipeMeDown. A part of me thinks that's a good thing, while the other part doesn't want this to happen.

I'm not sure if I've said this before but Mr. WipeMeDown is always busy because of the fact that he works 2 jobs. I understand it and I commend him for it BUT its to the point now where it's affecting my time with him. I don't mean this to sound like I don't want him to go out there and make his money though.

There are days when he would be off from one job or even both jobs, and instead of just hitting me up to even tell me, he's tweeting about going out with his homegirls or the guys. Now, I know I can be very jealous but I'm really not upset that he is trying to chill with his friend. I am upset that he doesn't even think to hit me up. Not only do I just want to see him or hang out with him sometimes, but I am a horn dog sad to say. I have needs and when he's MIA my needs go unnoticed. He once told me that as long as he stays busy with his 2 jobs, lack of sex doesn't really affect him. This isn't the case with me. I think about sex A LOT and I want it when I want it lol.

I also hate the fact that when he wants sex, I'm available and ready to go there and satisfy him, but when I want sex I can't get it. Then to make matters worse, his nonchalant attitude turns me off. When I tell him how I feel, he has the whole "I Don't Care" attitude". Then when we do have sex, I'm not entirely satisfied.

Don't get me wrong, Mr. WipeMeDown is great in bed, but when he's tired he does a half ass job and lately every time we do get to have sex, he's tired. It leaves me wanting more. I'm ok with the 1st round just being ok but I will need more rounds to satisfy me and he isn't up to it. He just cleans up and goes to sleep. Then last night after we finished, I went to touch him and he kind of freaked and that shit turned me off. I think I'm going to go back to my old partner who is great in bed, but refuses to go down on me smh. Its like a lose lose situation with these men.

The Fantasy

"She shows up at his house in nothing but a pair of 5in stilettos and a long black trench coat. He opens the door and she slowly opens her coat and shows him what's waiting for him. He stands there with his mouth open wide and she walks inside, kicks the door close and lets her coat drop to the floor. He grabs her and pushes her against the wall and starts kissing her passionately. He then starts kissing and sucking her neck and licks her ear. She almost melts in his arm because that's her spot right there, but he uses his weight to hold her up. He slowly makes his way south, making sure to kiss every part of her body. He starts sucking on her left nipple and flicks his tongue on it and gently bites sending her hormones into overdrive. The juices start flowing down her leg as her knees start to buckle. He then shows some attention to the right nipple and then squeezes them together while licking and biting. He continues down licking her stomach and her navel. He kisses her inner thigh and brings up her right leg and places it over his shoulder and parts her the lips that cover the prize that he's trying to get. He starts licking n sucking her clit and he felt it hard knowing he had her where he wanted. He inserts 2 fingers and then a 3rd as he continues to suck on the clit. A second later her body starts shaking as she cums all over his lips and he happily sucked it all down. She regains her composure and decides she needs to take back control. She pulls him to his feet and pushes him to the couch and gets down on her knees in front of him. She releases his dick and licks her lips in anticipation. She puts her warm mouth on his penis and starts sucking. He starts to moan and she starts playing with his balls while sucking his dick. She licks the tip and then spits on it and continues sucking. She then puts the whole dick in her mouth and allows her walls to surround the penis. She feels that he wants to cum but he's not ready for that so he eases his member out of her mouth. He stands her up and starts kissing her aggressively while playing with her pussy. She ends the kiss and turns around and bends down and shakes her ass for him. She turns her head and winks at him. He moves closer to her n slaps her ass. He then takes his dick and rubs it on her already wet pussy and then puts it in. He loves the feel of her pussy around his dick, it seems as if it was made just for him and he lets out a moan. He starts off slow and then starts pounding into her. She starts screaming words of ecstasy and tells him to go harder "fuck me daddy" is all she keeps telling him. In no time she reaches another orgasm. He pulls out of her and she makes him sit down on a chair and climbs on top. She starts riding him and he's sucking on her breast. "Yea daddy right there, OMG this shit feels so good". He lets off a load right there and her pussy sucks it all up. He's not quite done with her yet though. He leads her into the bedroom and ties her hands to the headboard and blindfolds her. He then goes into the kitchen and gets the whip cream from the refrigerator and comes back into the room. She wonders what he's about to do next but she doesn't have to wait long to find out. He puts the whip cream all over her body, her nipples, navel and on her pussy. He then goes on to licking everything off. He enjoys pleasing his women and after getting her to reach another orgasm he unties her and fucks her in every position. Once that is over they get into the shower and wash each other and head to the room to get some much needed rest. "

I wake up and I'm turned on by this dream. I quickly send that text and head over to see my "WipeMeDown".

I'm Not a Fan Of This Position

So Mr. WipeMeDown and I have a really good sex life (when we do see each other that is). He is pretty good in bed and I don't really have any complaint........except for one thing!!

I really do not care for the sideway posiiton where both the male and female are on their side and the guy is humping away. I really think this is just lazy sex. I much rather the missionary position or just straight up doggy style.

At first we use to do all sorts of positions but lately its always the same. I told him I don't care for it anymore. Like the sex is good, but there's not much anymore. There's barely any foreplay and we always wind up in that sideway position. Now usually it doesn't bother me if I know we will get to do more afterwards but thats not the case. I just don't feel completely satisfied when that's all I get.

Is there a position that you just don't care for during sex???

Massaging Your Way to the Draws

Sorry readers but I definitely got sidetracked last post. I was initially going to write about how guys use "massages" as a way to have sex. So I will just do that post now lol.

Now as mentioned in my last blog, Mr. WipeMeDown definitely wooed me in with the intentions of getting a massage that never happened. But I realize that this wasn't the first time it happened. A couple years ago I was talking to a friend and he asked me to come over after the club and I went. We are just laying on the bed watching tv when he ask if I'd like a massage so I, of course, say ok. So I lay on my stomach and he starts giving me a massage. During this massage, he starts kissing on my neck (which is one of my weaknesses) and from then on I was all his.

Another time I was hanging out with a homeboy who offered to give me a massage and as he was doing so he lifted up my dress and started massaging my butt. Now nothing happened in this particular instance because I really wasn't trying to go that route with said guy but I know if I allowed him to continue, we would've definitely had sex.

I can name a few other times where guys always offer a massage with the intention of getting me turned on but it all leads to my conclusion that guys really think this is the way to get in the draws. Now most cases, it really does work but I wonder if they ever think of any other ways to try and initiate sex.

Has anyone else come to this conclusion from past experiences or am I on my own with this "hypothesis"??

Massage

I've come to notice that people use massages as way in, a way to get you alone and possibly engage in sexual activities.

When I first met Mr. WipeMeDown I wasn't interested in anything, not even a friendship really. To me he was just a friend of a friend. Then one day he hits me up on twitter asking about a certain movie which led to us exchanging numbers and talking about other things. Then we started talking about massages and I asked him for one. He went on to say if he gives me a massage I would have to be naked and I reply that would be fine, as long as there was a sheet over my bottom half. He said that would be fine but he would take a peak. We flirted back and forth but to me it was all just talk because I didn't think I would ever go there with him.

One night Mr. WipeMeDown texts me saying he would like his massage and I replied he has to give me one first and he said that would be fine. So I got in a cab and went over to his place. We sit up talking and watching tv until 4am and then retreat to the bedroom for "bed". He gives me a tshirt to sleep in and I crawl into the bed. While laying there watching television, I turn on my side to see what he would do. Of course like any other male he puts his arm around me and then slips it under my shirt. "O lord, He's already starting something" is all I'm thinking but I don't pull away. He then proceeds to turn me onto my back and then lifts up my shirt. He sucks on my breasts and starts to make his way down placing gentle kisses down my body. Now all I'm thinking is I know he is not going to do what I think. But boy was I wrong. He slips off my boy shorts and starts licking and sucking. From there he has me in his world and I give him what he wants, sex!! Now to say that it was great is an understatement. I was beyond shocked though because from his appearance I expected him to be small and the sex to not be all that but thank God I was wrong.

Next morning, I remind him that he never gave me my massage so he still owes me that and next time I want it. This began the sexapades with Mr. WipeMeDown.

Lemme Introduce Chocolate

When I first started college, I wasn't really experienced in the dating field, let alone the sexual field. In high school I use to find any reason to not go out with a guy and just kick it with my girls, but once I got to college I realized this needed to change. (I actually realized this my senior year in hs when I couldn't find someone to go to the prom with).

So I encountered this man, let's call him Chocolate lol, and it turned out he was really cool with one of my close home girls. So he decided to get some info from my friend about me and I did the same. Once we were both satisfied, we decided to set up a date to actually hang out and get to know eachother. I came home one weekend to visit from school and he came by my house and I WAS SOOO SATISFIED!!! lol The next day we went to the movies and had a pretty good time just hanging out at the crib. We continued talking for a couple months before I gave up the goodies.

One saturday morning he comes and picks me up from my crib and we go back to his place. I was nervous as hell because I really liked him and I didn't want to do anything wrong to make him not like me. He turned out to be packing and the sex was GREAT.

Now I have this tendency to think like some men at times and believe that once a man has had sex with me, they will lose interest because that's all that they wanted. I took on this attitude with Chocolate and I think that turned him away.

Remember how I said that Chocolate and my homegirl are really cool, well because of that I see him on different occasions when he comes by her crib and EVERYTIME I see him, I get those butterflies. I feel like we are meeting all over again and I get a lil shy.

I haven't seen Chocolate since August at our last annual cookout and me and him were talking for a good while. I wanted to exchange numbers with him so we could keep in touch but that didn't end up happening. Anyway, I do still have feelings for him and I want us to start talking again.

When I come to this revelation, I find out that Chocolate and my sis from another mother are really cool as well. I tell her about my history with him and that I still have feelings for him and now she's trying to get us back together. Now I'm definitely not complaining but I'm nervous as hell. Saturday my homie is having a graduation party and Chocolate is suppose to be there so now I'm going crazy looking for an outfit to wear to look good lol. Isn't it crazy what we do when we know certain people are going to be where we are going to be?? I just hope he's still interested and now that I am back in NY, me and him can start talking on that level again. I guess I'll just have to wait and see.