You Don't Believe In What???

Last night I'm chilling with Mr. P and we are talking and watching a movie. Something in the movie leads me to ask him about God and this guy informs me that he doesn't believe in Him!! I look at him and say you have to be kidding me and he's like no he doesn't believe in God and when I ask why, he responds that he doesn't believe in the supernatural. By this time my jaw has dropped and I am in utter shock. I still think he's joking with me because he has a smirk on his face so I'm like nah be forreal right now and he says he's dead serious. So I back away from him and I'm asking why not and did he always feel this way and he says no, he use to go to catholic school and he was raised in a baptist home but as he grew up, he stopped believing. So I call him an atheist and he just chuckles. I ask if he believes in Jesus and he says yea so I ask then why not his father and he says because no one has seen God.

Now this is a very serious issue to me because I was raised in a baptist home as well and I still am one. I have to admit that I haven't been to church in quite some time for different reasons but my belief hasn't changed. I honestly don't know if I can date someone who doesn't believe in God. I know for a fact that I will be going to church again and I will want a guy that I get serious with to go with me and to meet my mother and if Mr. P ends up being that guy it won't happen. I especially wouldn't let him meet my mom because she is very very religious and she would automatically dislike him.

Do you think I'm overreacting with this? Would you date someone who doesn't believe in God??

My V-day

I wouldn't categorize myself as one of those females who bashes valentines day because of the fact that I am lonely or anything but I generally don't really care for the holiday. It is true that I don't care for it because there's never someone in my life around the time of this holiday so I usually spend it with friends or alone or even at work. This year I figured I might celebrate it because I was talking to someone but that didn't quite happen.

E-man hit me up that morning and we spoke briefly via texts and he told me he was out shopping with his fam and that was the end of it. He didn't say "happy vday shay" or even mention anything about us going out that night. So of course I just left it alone. I had another alternative for that night with a friend of a friend whom I recently started talking to. The plan was to just chill with him and watch the allstar game and although I didn't mind, I really wanted to go out and do something so I kind of put that in the backburner.

So I ended up spending the day in bed reading my book and playing games on the computer. I said I was not going to hit up E-man to find out what was going on because him not hitting me up is a way of letting me know that we wasn't going to do anything. I finally got out of bed around 7pm and showered but then I was stumped. I didn't know if I should get dressed or just get back into bed so I did what I said I wasn't going to do and I texted E-man and asked if we was still gonna catch a movie or whatever and he took a while to respond and informed me that he needs a raincheck because he couldn't make it. I didn't respond to him because I was upset. I always had the view that if a guy is bailing on you on vday its because the "main chick" in his life has his time and I don't fall 2nd in line for a guy. So I called the other guy, we'll call him Mr. P and he asked me if I still wanted to come over and although it was a troop from my crib I agreed.

I am very happy I did go because I ended up having a nice time. We chilled and talked and laughed and watched the game. He made me a virgin pina colada and it was banging and then when the game was over we went out and got something to eat and talked some more and got a better understanding of each other. He was going to teach me how to play pool but it was almost 2am and I had work in the morning so I asked for a raincheck. I didn't really know how he viewed me so when he dropped me home I just gave him a hug and told him to call me when he got home. All in all I had a nice vday for the first time in my 23yrs of life lol. I speak to Mr. P everyday and I wonder where this is going to go but I don't get to excited for it because I don't want to get my hopes shot down so I'm just taking this one day at a time.

Do You Believe in Psychics??

So my genius bff wanted to go see a psychic the other day and since I had nothing better to do, I went with her. I wasn't planning on getting myself read or anything, just going for moral support because I never believed in them; I always thought it was a scam to get money out of people. So while she was with my bff, I stayed in the outer room reading my book. When she finished, my bff came out and I asked her if the lady was any good and she said yes so I decided what the hell....still wondering if that was a big mistake or not.

Now the lady told my bff not to tell anyone about what they spoke about but she didn't tell me that so I'm not sure if its like against the rules or anything. So I will talk about some things she was able to tell me and things that kind of freaked me the hell out. First thing first, as soon as I walked into the room she was able to tell that I was Haitian and then she made me shuffle the cards. When I gave it back to her, the first card was DEVIL!!! My initial reaction was like what the hell??? The next card was freaking DEATH!!! (hence y I was freaked out) and the 3rd card was JUSTICE. Ok so the lady says she senses that I lost someone very close to me recently and I said yea my father passed away a few months ago and she's like his spirit is still with me and that he knows how much I'm hurting and he's not leaving my side. She also went on to say that the reason of his death that I was told isn't quite accurate and she asked what did they say he died from and I replied cancer. She shook her head no and said it was from witchcraft. Now the strange thing is that my mom honestly feels the same way, she thinks his sisters must have done something but of course there is no proof. Psychic lady went on to tell me that she see's that I'm having financial problems and relationship problems. She tells me that she sees I was in a relationship for 3-4yrs and I replied yes and she said we broke up because I felt like it wasn't going anywhere and I replied that was the truth and 'cause there were too many probs. In the end she informs me that I have spirits around me that are trying to get at me and that's why I'm having so much problems in different areas of life. So I ask how do I get rid of them, do I need to start going back to church or something and she says no I can pray anywhere, not necessarily church. She says there's this procedure she does that will get rid of the spirits and I respond but isn't that witchcraft and she's like no. Now this is when she makes me go back to my original views about it being all about money; she tells me the procedure is going to cost me $1200. Whoah lady sorry not happening.

Til this day I do wonder if what she told me is true because it could probably explain why there are so many problems in my life and with my fam. My mom says she doesn't believe in psychics because they are not worshipers of God (which I always agreed to). The psychic lady told me that once these spirits were gone, my career would take off and I would find that guy and everything will start working out the way they are suppose to. This sound so nice, but I'm not willing to have no procedure done on me nor am I about to cough up all that money for something I don't really believe in. What do you guys think???

New Guy

Well he's not really new, I did meet him while I was still with Stuy but I didn't really give him the time of day until now. Let's call him E-man. He's really nice and we started spending more time together and communicating via text. The other night he took me to this mexican restaurant in Soho and I had a pretty good time. At first I was a little uncomfortable because I decided to wear heels so I was a lil taller than him but after, it didn't even matter (for some reason after dinner I didn't seem that much taller lol). We got to talk and get to know eachother some more and I think the real reason I had such a nice time was because I never actually went on a "real date" with someone. I've gone out with guys, but its always to the movies, but I guess that's kind of my fault because that's what I always suggest because I'm a movie fanatic. I don't want to get my hopes up too much about E-man but it's nice to have someone paying me attention since my break up with Stuy (whom I still speak to from time to time). Let's see how this goes!!