Thursday, November 11, 2010

Losing Interest

I think I am beginning to lose interest in Mr. WipeMeDown. A part of me thinks that's a good thing, while the other part doesn't want this to happen.

I'm not sure if I've said this before but Mr. WipeMeDown is always busy because of the fact that he works 2 jobs. I understand it and I commend him for it BUT its to the point now where it's affecting my time with him. I don't mean this to sound like I don't want him to go out there and make his money though.

There are days when he would be off from one job or even both jobs, and instead of just hitting me up to even tell me, he's tweeting about going out with his homegirls or the guys. Now, I know I can be very jealous but I'm really not upset that he is trying to chill with his friend. I am upset that he doesn't even think to hit me up. Not only do I just want to see him or hang out with him sometimes, but I am a horn dog sad to say. I have needs and when he's MIA my needs go unnoticed. He once told me that as long as he stays busy with his 2 jobs, lack of sex doesn't really affect him. This isn't the case with me. I think about sex A LOT and I want it when I want it lol.

I also hate the fact that when he wants sex, I'm available and ready to go there and satisfy him, but when I want sex I can't get it. Then to make matters worse, his nonchalant attitude turns me off. When I tell him how I feel, he has the whole "I Don't Care" attitude". Then when we do have sex, I'm not entirely satisfied.

Don't get me wrong, Mr. WipeMeDown is great in bed, but when he's tired he does a half ass job and lately every time we do get to have sex, he's tired. It leaves me wanting more. I'm ok with the 1st round just being ok but I will need more rounds to satisfy me and he isn't up to it. He just cleans up and goes to sleep. Then last night after we finished, I went to touch him and he kind of freaked and that shit turned me off. I think I'm going to go back to my old partner who is great in bed, but refuses to go down on me smh. Its like a lose lose situation with these men.


  1. Hun,I know exactly what you mean. I have been going through the motions with my "men"ions as well. I end up cutting them lose even though I really do not want to.

    Peace, Love and Chocolate

  2. Shay Shay...I'm not being harsh ...but from what you describe, it seems like he's just not that into you. Yes, he likes having sex with you when HE wants to but that's about it.

    When a man truly wants to be with you he makes time. His free time is yours and when he is busy, he's trying to find a moment to spend time with you.

    If you want a "casual relationship" then by all means, keep him on the roster but DO NOT give him too much of your stuff.

    If you're looking for something with more substance, you may need to let him go.