Graduation Parties

Well it's known that my gurls and I have just graduated from college (WOOHOO LOL), so this weekend was dedicated to us celebrating. Friday night was my homie graduation party @ Club Prime and Saturday was the other homie's graduation/birthday party at her crib.

Friday night was fun. While on the line, Chocolate came and he was talking to Ashy. He said wassup to me but no hug (I was a lil offended but whatever). So we finally get in the club and link up with the rest of the gurls and of course millions of pictures were taken. One thing I was a lil taken aback about was the price of the drinks. I ordered goose n orange juice and that crap was $14. Now I know this is typical in NY but understand I have been partying in ATL and I have yet to pay over $10 for a drink out there.

I should mention that Chocolate didn't end up coming in because they were charging him $40 to get in when he was really only suppose to pay $20. I was disappointed (I was really disappointed lol) but it was whatever I guess. lol

Around 2:30am Ashy had to go cuz she had to pick up the boo and I wasn't ready to leave so she left alone. Now I don't want you guys to think I'm grimey because I kept asking if she was cool with that cuz if she wasn't I would leave with her. I mean it was one of my closest friend's party so of course I didn't wana leave until it was over but Ashy is like my sis so I didn't want her getting mad at me, but she said she was cool and I just made sure she texted me when she got to the car, when she picked him up, and when she got home lol.

Saturday night was the backyard party and I had a blast as well. All the homies were there and guess who came thru......CHOCOLATE!!!!! lol. So me n Ash are walking to the crib from the car and we see him standing there talking to some girl and I already felt some type of way lol, but it turned out to be my homegurl. So he gives Ash a big hug and doesn't say anything to me ERRRR. When he looks at me I said hey Chocolate but he didn't say anything so I was like wow ok I won't be saying anything else to him for the rest of the night.

So me n Ash go upstairs to get some food and drinks and as we was eating, Chocolate comes up and starts talking to Ash. I just mind my business and eat my food. So then Ash says Shay, Chocolate says you didn't say anything to him tonight and I'm like wow are you serious. I definitely said hi to him and he ignored me. So he's like no you didn't, I kept looking at you waiting to catch your eye to say wassup and you made it your duty to not look at me. (lmao) I'm like no when I seen you look at me (once) I said "Hi Chocolate" and you just turned away as if I was nothing and he's like nah I didn't hear you. So then he comes and stands by me and gives me a hug and we talk for a bit. (The butterflies were on full mode at this time lol).

The night goes on and its full of pics and jokes and cake and drinks lol. Then Ash tells me she's leaving and I'm like ok (once again I'm not leaving cuz this is my close friend party). So I go to put my bag down and when I come back, she's gone. So I'm using my homeboy phone to call her but she not pickin up. So I get Chocolate to call her and she said she had left and he's like bring your ass back over here. Then he hooks my arm to his and we walk to go meet up with her ( I was feeling special and freaking paparazzi caught it on camera lol). I should add that he came with a date (and shorty was not cute to me...and I'm definitely not hating. I just think he could do better but I heard that's his ride or die so whatever!!!). While we were walking I asked if this is ok...is he gonna get into trouble with shorty he came with and of course he said no. He a grown ass man and can do whatever he wants lol.

So we get to the car and he talks for a bit and then he leaves. So I'm talking to Ash and then she says she has to go and when I say give me a hug she says no because she's mad at me but rather not talk about it now. So of course I went to the bestie and tried to get her input and that's when I realized that because I was trying to entertain everyone, I neglected Ash. Knowing everyone at a party isn't all its cracked up to be. But overall, THIS WAS A GREAT WEEKEND!!!!

I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE

I haven't really had the chance to blog lately because it's been such a crazy week, partying and what not lol. Read previous blogs about senior week.

Well this past monday, May 18, 2009 I graduated from Clark Atlanta University with a BA in Finance!!!!!!!!! I was hype as hell because I worked so hard for it and made it my duty to be able to achieve this accomplishment in 4yrs. This day was suppose to be the happiest day of my life, but it wasn't. My brother got me soooooooo mad.

So after graduation, of course there was traffic (on foot) because everyone was talking to friends and family and snapping pictures everywhere, me included. So then my brother calls me and tells me to meet them by the car and I say ok. Then my lil sis called and said to meet them in front of my apartment so I said ok and went in front of my apartment. So we was taking pics and my mom came with some balloons and it was all good. Then we went inside because I had to use the bathroom and we had to call the restaurant to make sure we didn't need to make reservations. Then my brother calls all mad asking where we are at so we say in the house. He's all mad because he's hungry and I'm like well I'm hungry too, I been up since 530am and haven't eaten anything yet. My man goes into complete b*tch mode and stopped picking up the phone. We kept calling and calling and he was just sending us to voicemail, so we decided to just call a cab. When the cab says he'll be here soon, my brother decides to call and say come to the car. So now we are walking and looking for the car but we can't find it. Now do remember I have on heels and so does my mother and this dumb motherf**ker has us walking all over campus looking for him.

We keep calling him and at first he was just ignoring the call, but then he turns off his phone completely. So we call the cab again (since I was ignoring the 1st one we called and he left). As soon as the cab pulls up and we start getting into it, my brother pulls up right behind. Then this n**ga comes to the cab door like if yall wana take a cab then go ahead, give me my son's bag and snatches the bag and storms over to his car and drives off.

Usually this wouldn't have gotten to me but I was mad. It was bad enough that a lot of the important people in my life couldn't make it (dad, ash, steph, rach. jess, laurie, etc), but then he was making the day about him. Now I am not a selfish person, but May 18 was MY DAY!!!!!! It was suppose to be about me and only me. I don't care if my brother was starving, he was suppose to take my feelings into consideration before throwing a b**ch fit.

While we were in the cab to the restaurant, I started crying. I can't say it was only because of my brother tho. I think my bro had a big part but I was also so very sad that people couldn't be there to share this day with me. To add insult to injury, he didn't show up to the restaurant. He went back to where he was staying and packed his bag and went to the airport. So you know what I say..."F**K HIM!!!!"

Then last night he had the nerve to text me asking for the $60 I owe him. Well guess what, he aint getting it because he still owess me $100. UGHH FAMILY!!!!!

Senior Dinner

I got my cap and gown today. I was so excited and as soon as I got home I put it on. I feel like its a lil too big but I can't do nothing about it now so its whatever. I also received my yearbook and my graduation picture looks great, if I do say so myself lol.

So I went to the senior dinner today and they were showing our graduation pics and giving speeches and food and such. Then they had awards for people. I RECEIVED ONE!!!! It basically says that they recognize me for my academic achievement. I am graduating with a 3.42 gpa and although I should be ecstatic, I'm a lil down. I was hoping to get my gpa back to being above a 3.5 but that didn't happen. I was taking 6 classes this semester and I got 2 As and 4 Bs, and I thought I was going to get at least 3 As and 3 Bs but I can't complain right..I mean I'm graduating on Monday lol.

Backing Out of Graduation

The other day I was looking through the millions of pictures I have on facebook and I stumbled on my sister's graduation pictures. I remembered how we all drove there as a family and stayed at her apartment and went to the graduation late and pretended we was there the whole time. GOOD TIMES LOL.

Now I think about my graduation that is coming up in two weeks on May 18 (woohoo lol) and I can't help but feel sad that I won't have the same experience. A lot of my family members who I want there aren't coming anymore.

My dad said he wasn't coming from jump because my mom is going to be there. ERR Like are you serious??? He says he doesn't want to be around her and he just rather not go. Now you would think the man that paid for me to go to college for 4yrs and use to drive my friends and I back and forth for the first 2yrs would want to be there to see his daughter get her degree. NOOO!!!! Instead he wants act stupid. Like why can't you just deal with it. No one is asking for you to talk to my mom or anything, just come and support. I remember seeing the pic with my sis in the middle and my mom and dad on each side and I can't help but feel jealous because I want a pic like that as well.

Next you have my sis (same one as above) who can no longer attend my graduation because the stupid judge decided to say the paternity test is that day. Now I don't blame her or anything but I'm real upset because I'm really close with her. I skipped my graduation for my associate's degree to go to her graduation because I knew she wanted me to be there and she was getting her bachelor's. Now she can't even attend my own grad.

Then you have my oldest sister who, in my opinion, doesn't really have a valid excuse. It was all planned that she was going to drive down with my brother and yesterday my brother calls and tells me she says she's not going anymore because she has to take some test June 6 and hasn't started studying. So instead of her coming to support her sister and watch her attain her degree, she'll be home "studying". I think its a load of sh**.

Then you have my brother who was suppose to ride in the car with my other bro n sis but since they're not driving anymore, he can't go.

It's like everyone is backing out of this last minute and I can't do nothing about it. I'm still going to try and enjoy my big day but I will always feel that void because of the lack of support. Congrats to me right smh.